Heart Says Yes...Mouth Says No

I'm really moody today... Today lost her again...But this time... She actually agrees to not be friends with me... I was shocked.... She sent me a message saying... That If I happy... She won't disturb me anymore... My heart just stop as I read that message.... Then,a tear drop out from my eye... But I quickly rub it away because I don't want my sister to see me cry...

My heart tightened fast as I read that one single message... I have to go but I don't want to... Its like we were holding each other's hands... Then someone tried to separate us.... As they pull us from each other... Our hands didn't let go... But who knew.... That she let go first instead of me... I'm not that happy when she left cause I feel sad...

Our friendship died... So did my soul... As she slowly leave... My heart just dropped... Our friendship dropped like a mirror... People call me not to touch as I will hurt myself... But why won't I stop collecting the broken pieces... Even if my hands are bleeding... Why can't I just let go?

So true... Cause I suffer because of emotion

Because I didn't appreciate on what I have

Never play with someone's heart... Because if its broken... It can never be fixed

Sorry doesn't fix that broken heart

Just like mine...

Mine was always made to be broken...

And now,I don't what am I supposed to do...

Readers out there... If you have a friend that you really like... Appreciate  her/him because if you leave her... She/He won't come back unless you want her back...Like mine...

Not Alone

Erm... All my life,I thought... In this cruel and evil world...I just have to face the pain I'm having alone... But as I walked slowly into the dark hole... I saw a bright light... I felt scared... As I walked into the bright place...I saw a girl... Smiling at me happily... That smile was warm... I felt so happy and glad for the first time... Because she knows how I feel... She keeps me away from danger... She always care about me... When I bad mood or angry,she would be there to make me feel that I don't have t face this alone...


If she cry,I cry
If she smile,I smile
If she fall,I'll catch her
If she needs me,I'll be there
If she jump,I'll jump as well


Because I'll be there for her all the time...Will she be there for me?If she leaves me,I'll be okay because she sure have a reason why she leave me... Whenever I bad mood,she sure at my side wan... Trying to make me laugh...
As I spend time with her day by day... I realize that I'm not alone anymore... I'm not facing this cruel world alone anymore... Because she is by my side now... My birthday present came early this year from God... I wanted for my birthday was a friend that understands my pain and will be there for me whenever I need her... Maybe God isn't that cruel... He sent me a friend that is there for me... I wan to thank God... 


Therefore I say,I'm not alone anymore... As she is by my side... I have nothing to fear... Because I know that she will be with me with every step I take... I've been sitting in the corner because I was scared that I would be hurt... Many people past by... But they ignore me... They treated me as I was a beggar... Then one day,a girl reached out her hand to grab mine... As I slowly reached out... I hold her hand... She smiled at me... That smile she gave wasn't a normal smile I always see... Because it was like the first time I saw that smile... Like magic...


I smiled back and I felt happy about it... I knew that I wasn't alone anymore... As she is by my side now... 






Thank You For Always Being There For Me...