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Saturday, June 30, 2012

It Hurts.. Just stop..


Am I really that useless ?
All de seniors use me
Band members hate me
Teacher gossip bad things about me
I wanna cry out loud !
Please !
Stop everything !
Tears are coming out
My heart hurts
A lot
Please
Just let me die
Eu don't really love me
Eu just love her
It's all my fault ?
I know..
I don't wanna blame anyone
I blame myself
For being so useless
Ugh..
I feel disgusting..
Why my tears won't stop
My heart hurts
STOP
Enough..
Don't continue
Please
How long can I hold on ?
I'm at my limit now..
Please..
Stop..
It hurts.. 




Am I really that useless ?
All de seniors use me
Band members hate me
Teacher gossip bad things about me
I wanna cry out loud !
Please !
Stop everything !
Tears are coming out
My heart hurts
A lot
Please
Just let me die
Eu don't really love me
Eu just love her
It's all my fault ?
I know..
I don't wanna blame anyone
I blame myself
For being so useless
Ugh..
I feel disgusting..
Why my tears won't stop
My heart hurts
STOP 

Friday, June 29, 2012

Sorry No Cure !

Eu know ma ?
I really tired
You are one of them
The type of people who just be friends with me
To be close with sis
Eu say,
I'm not like my sis
I thought
I believe eu
When I finally trust eu
Eu change
At first say I not like sis
Now,
Say I sebiji with her
I really don't understand eu
Did you lie to me ?
Or you not sure I sebiji with sis ?
I just wanna cry
Do you know my feelings ma ?!
I've suffered
And I'm suffering now
Say what eu forget her
Say what eu don't love her anymore
I know eu still love her as kai jie
I really pain now
But,
eu won't comfort me
Just comfort Qiu Ling
I wanna cry
I know one..
No need explain..
:')
I understand 
Sorry for not being perfect 
Sorry for not being my sis..
I sorry for everything
I'm just
Sorry
for everything
I know I say no use
You won't come back..

Saturday, June 23, 2012

You Really Don't Know ?



You really don't know ?
She treat eu like a sister
Honestly,
I don't feel like her sister also
Feel like stranger
Especially band de time
People say I lie when I say she is my sis
She treat eu a lot better,
Eu know ma ?
I already getting tired
Of being jealous of eu
You have everything I don't
:)
I don't want it to change also
I just want to say..
Please take care of her
As I know you still love her
And she still love eu
I can just see it in both ur eyes
You know that ?
It's okay if eu don't admit it
Everyone thinks that way also
Haha :)
Today was fun
I'll remember it
Say dao this kind of relationship..
I miss Shu Qing also already
But,
Miss no use de
Eu talk to me these days
Doesn't mean our relationship
Is getting any better
I want things to stay as it is
Sis being and making people happy
:)
If you're happy
I'm happy
Yeah
I want to be happy with you and everyone else
But,
It's fine
At least the two people I love happy
If eu are reading this,
Please..
Take care of her for me
I can't always stay there for her forever
But,
I know she will stay with you forever
Goodbye,
Xiao Jun
:')




So True ? Sorry..

Today finish band
Finally lo
But,
Band people complain
I very very noisy
They say
that they don't want me
to join them wherever they go
I hurt dao la of course
But,
Also true right ?
I was just thinking
To change unit uniform
To St.John
What should I do ?
If I change leh..
Band sure happy
Even no me,
Still got Qiu Ling ma
What was I thinking ?
To think that all band members like me ?
Stupid hor me ?
I am really really tired today
To all the band members,
I'm sorry for all the trouble
And thank you for everything..
:)
Rest more ya..

Friday, June 22, 2012

A lot of things oh.. :)

It's Sports Day already !
Tomorrow is finally the day..
Wa,
Excited lo !
xD
I practice song at band
Wa.. Really happy lo !
It's like I just all the member now..
Although we met like more than 6 months ago
Wow !
Fantastic baby !
xD
Today really good mood
But gam jiong for tomorrow
Play trumpet leh !
Always blow wrong note !
><
Luckily, got senior cover for me
Muahaha !
I like,
Just know everyone only
Last time
Diam diam there nia
But now,
NOISY LU !
Band really made me happy
Hope next time can do again
Hope this year la
I don't want de senior go..
T.T
I had fun
Lots and lots of fun..
:)


Then hor..
I suddenly like to watch the movie..
'Narnia'
xD
So interested wor
Don't know why
_ _ll
Very nice to watch !
Must see must see !
Fantasy show
I more interested in real life !
These kind of shows just hobby
;)


Then o..
Today at band
I like the mother oh..
I feed everyone chocolate (rocky) de
Then have to buy for them chocolate
Then feed them spicy seaweed
==
So young become mother ?
xD
Funny part is feed KerWon (president) de time
Very hard to explain 
But really funny
Ah !
Today got polish instrument also leh !
I feel like a boss when polish de time
So pro oh
xD
Senior teach me de
Me newbie nia
Next year my turn to teach juniro
;)
Tomorrow finally the day !
To all band members !
Gambateh !
:)
Tomorrow I treat seaweed
Bye bye !
And,
Goodnight !

Saturday, June 16, 2012

No Comment..

Erm..
Today very bad mood
I just want to shout to the world..
Fuck you !
Damn it..
Haiz..
I really nothing to say..
==
People LC ad nowadays
Especially form 2
_ _ll
The people I hate most
First
Good good with them
But later,
B
E
T
R
A
Y
.
.
Deii
Its not like I do anything to them
They say what crap I admire them
Scared their past will happen again
Please la
I friend friend with both of you
 Because I friend with everyone
Deii
The two form 2 arrr..
Kick them in the ass only
But cannot
Just because one is PRS
And one is Pengawas
=.=
I hate those two the most !
Other people is okay de
But
Seriously these two
Walao
Really no comment
==
Tired of them
I just want to change school
I don't want same school with both of them
Deii
Then got one form 3
Think I like her ?!
I used to like her
But,
I see her 'bad' side liao
Treat me like trash
I know I'm not perfect
At least tell me
What's about me that eu don't like
I can change
But,
You call everyone don't friend me
Just because eu heard rumours about me
I hate rumours de most !
Especially about band de time
I first join band
I really like it
Very fine de
But people go say band worst
Because I inside
Walao
Say what band no talent la
Waste time la
Bullshit la !
I know I not that good
But,
Don't go talk about other things
Okay
You can say me
But don't say band
Okay with me
You want to fight ?
Ma come la
Say dao like that
Who wrong first ?
Don't go blaming band just because I in it
You very good is it ?!
You got friends you very pro ?!
Got pretty face means eu geng ?!
You want say about band..
Come say to me
No need go gossip fake things about band
You want complain
Complain to me
No need waste your saliva on other people
Don't think you pro !
Eu join another club means you very popular ?!
Don't think crap la
 Please la
Deii
People like eu arr
Really nothing to say
I know I not popular like eu
I know I not cute or anything
I know I not that useful
But,
Don't say band
You wan say me
Say la !
I don't care
Keep your damn mouth shut
If concern band
We are trying the best to be better
You do what ?
Talk talk talk
At least band members are trying hard
Just because I'm in band 
Doesn't mean band not good
Walao eh
Really
No comment
==

How Are You ?

How have eu been ?
Today tired ma ?
Sleeping early ?
I'm curious..
I just wanna know
That's all
:)
I know I'm annoying
That's why eu abandoned me
Waiting for eu
I've been waiting for more than
3 days
But no reply from eu
I thought we could be friends like normal
But,
You just don't want 
Right ?
I've been sitting in the silence for long enough
I've had enough
I know I leave you
I know my fault
I know everything
I'm sorry
I know you won't talk to me anyway
It's just me
I'm the problem here
If eu understand why
Fine..
As long as eu know why
Sorry for wasting your efforts
I know I'm the first friend 
you want take back
I'm the first person 
you gave letter to in secondary
I know I'm you first
little brother
I'm actually really happy
Before and now
:)
I want you
I see you 
with other junior de time
Really stab dao my heart
Pain la
You know ma ?
I want you back
But
you told me you don't want me anymore
I wasted ur effort
Here I am
Saying sorry to you
Today,
You were standing in front me
I thought I can talk to you..
Haha
You must let go of the past
I know that
But
I can't
I haven't learn how to let go
It's because of my past I was suffering
Now,
What do I do ?
I want to stand in front you
And ask you properly,
How are you..

Jogathon !

Woo Hoo !
Today..
Run !
Haha
So tired o..
I only one shouting when running
I shout
''Cepat Form 1 ! Lari !,
Form bloeh !''
Everyone say I gila
But,
I'm happy I can support..
:)
Some also say
Thank you wor !
Because of me..
And my shouting ;)
They continue to run
Wa..
I so touched when I heard..
xD
Too bad no one shout with me..
Oh well !
I was really happy today
But then got terrible headache
My left hand like worse liao
(Because injection)
==
Then my leg sore like hell !
I sleep because my stomcah and head pain
I wake up de time
My neck cannot move
My head turn left when I sleep ma
Wake up de time
Cannot turn left
Suii lu !
Then got tuition
Deii
_ _ll
But at least 
got chat with Hui Ying (form 2)
It was a tiring day
But hey,
I had fun,didn't I ?
;)

Saturday, June 9, 2012

A Good Deed

Today so happy !
;)
Because I just got a message from
Azimah !
She say her father just came back
:)
I'm so glad
I always see her cry at school
I feel sad also
T.T
But,
We did a small present for her
I was really glad that she liked it
We gave her a box
That box had small notes
That was for her and her dad
Saying
Don't be sad..
Be strong
I was really surprised many people wrote it !
:)
Haha
I guess I don't need to pray anymore
Her dad came back safe,
I'm really glad..
=]
I hope eu and ur family always happy !
I know eu reading this Azimah !
;)
Don't sad anymore !

Friday, June 8, 2012

Wow.. I understand..

I understand..
You're not alone
That knows that feeling
:)
Yeah..
I'm talking about you
Feels special
When you get a single text
From the one
You love
Right ?


Just one text
Eu feel happy enough
Am I wrong ?
I expecting an SMS from someone too
Waiting useless also
I won't see her again anyway
:)
Yeah
It hurts,right ?
You heart
When you expect a message from him/her
You didn't receive
I'm still waiting
For her and him
Last time I thought
you wouldn't mind
If I kacau you
But,
I am..
Aren't I ?
I miss the times
When I hold my phone
And waiting for my phone to ring
Now,
It's gone


Either is fine
Him
Or her
I don't mind
I miss both of you
I wait my phone to ring
Although my ringtone was noisy
I hold it tight
Because I know that eu will reply
But,
Why ?
Huh?
You completely ignore me now..


I don't care
Whatever happens..
Just a text is alright for me
Do you know ?
I'm lonely now
Result coming out
Who's going to be there for me
If I don't get good result
Who'll be there for me
If I'm crying
Who'll be there for me
When I miss them ?
No one..
I've waited
I'm waiting
I will wait
Both of you
:)

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Bye Bye T_T

Uwahh !
Holiday gone ad..
Yerr..
Soo fast
Oh well..
Didn't go anywhere also
What holiday 
=.=
Waiting next holiday
At August
Which got
DYC Camp !
Should I be happy of sad ?
I sure sad
All the damn LC senior there
=.=
Walao
All become helper !
Deii
Lucky didn't group with them
_ _ll
So excited o
Sunday going to cut my hair
Front
Back
Side
And
Layour
Mom say go cut botak
I don't want my nightmare to come true
T_T
Yerr
My front hair at the nose there ad
Back hair can tie liao
Good news la can tie
I tell mom want tie
Mom say I gila ad
T_T
Hurt dao deep
Muahaha
When finish cut hair
I post !
;)
Bye bye Holiday
I'll never forget eu ~
:)

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Apasaii ?

Yesterday..
I dream..
Something horrible
But very very very funny
Haha !
Enjoy ! 
;)






My dream
Last night
I dreamt..
Everyone go B.O.T.A.K
Ahaha !
I see everyone
All shiny shiny head de
I see mirror
I got hair !
Thank GOD !
I ask mom
Y U BOTAK LIAO ?!


Mom says,
I FOLLOW OBAMA !
I ask
Y U FOLLOW OBAMA ?!
SHOULD FOLLOW
THE ROCK !
OH YEAH !!!!
Mom said,
SHUT UP !
GO CUT BOTAK NOW !!
And then,
I woke up !
I go check my sister's hair
Wa..
Still curly and long
If short
Like Phua Chu Kang
:\
Haha !
I sad
My childhood friend leaving
She moving away
Cause her dad and mom
got promotion as doctor..
Walao eh !
Like this also can happen ?!
Biang eh !
=.=
I sien with this liao..
I really really TBT liao
(TBT = Tak Boleh Tahan)
Zzz..
Lagi worse is..
Everyone keep talking to me like a boss


Like they really rich..
=.=
Lagi teruk is that
People keep on repeating the damn word
L.O.L
At my face
I hate the word lol
To me & sis
lol = Zzz
So,
Stop saying lol at my face ! 
_ _ ll

Saturday, June 2, 2012

You're Just Too Much !

Yeah !
I can't than eu ad !
I had enough liao
Yesterday scold me say I useless
This morning say I didn't charge ur phone !
Yesterday ming ming saw charging
But go blame without evidence
Damn !
you know who I talking about ?!
My own mother !
Walao..
Yesterday call give suggestion
For supper because eu hungry
Then I give suggestion
I joke joke say nasi lemak 3 times
The  scold me useless no reason !
Deii !
Then today say I never do things right !
If you wanna scold me..
Don't born me la !
Walao !
=.=
I don't even know if eu love me
Last time beat me because want to 'lepaskan geram'
Like my bro !
Zzz..
Do what no use..
Still my om anyway 
==
Always repeat I love eu
I love eu ur piak !
Piang eh !
I know eu hate me de !
Last time shout in the house say
I hate you
But when outside
Tell people eu love me !
Puii !
I hate this life the most !

Friday, June 1, 2012

What To Do Now ?

What to do..
What to do now..
I don't want all this shit
Damn..
I don't want this..
Many people go DYC
But,
All of them
Are my enemies
==
Especially that person !
Deii..
I wanna go DYC !
But,
I feel like want to change decision
Should I go ?
Or not ?
If only they didn't go..
Those damn form 5
Especially that damn girl !
Puii !
Walao..
This year most suii de year
==
I hate this year
Go back to last year,please ?
:)


Tang yuan :)


Ice skating :)


New year :)


Don't know :)


Cousin's wedding :)


My family :)

I understand that life's cruel
I wanna go back
to last time
When I still didn't understand
Suffer
Nothing good happens when I join secondary
But
I met you
Was the only good thing that happened..
;)