Is It Really Gone??

Is it really gone??

The pain I once knew..

Has it returned??
Could it be??

I thought everything changed...

I was stupid...

Nothing changed at all

The only thing changed its that..

The suffering has gone worse

Parents not really love me

Brothers return and beat and bully me

Always scold me

Sister ignore and blame everything on me

Friends avoiding me

I feel lonely again

The happiness I felt...

Was just for a while

Not forever

Because life's not fair

It doesn't give what you want...

Now,

My question is...

Is the pain really gone??

Thinking about this makes me suffer

Because I want that happy feeling again...

Not a suffering feeling...

Warm

Not pain

My heart,

my head,

my body

everywhere....

Hurts deeply...

I want to cry it out...

But,

I can't...

Because crying no use

Crying won't let the suffering go away...

It will still stay

Let it go...

Let my happiness go is the best solution of all

Let others be happy

I give up

I don't want to talk about it anymore...

I will stay silent 

And smile fake

Because that is what I do

Actually,

That is what I have been doing

All this time

I have been wasting my time

Thinking that I could be happy

The only thing that is gone...

Is my happiness

Its back to my old life

Fake smiles
Fake laughs

Fake everything

Goodbye life...

I won't miss you anymore...