Happy??

When I on facebook,

Saw two perfect photos

That shows my life

Maybe,

Some people don't know

But,

I just notice what these mean

As

These photos are just

Perfect =)

I laugh a lot at school

Because I want people to smile

I asked sis,

She said,

''I don't think that this is true to me''

But,

Hey

This always true to me

Because I experienced this everyday

I'm a pro at this

When I say at this,

Means that

I'm good at faking

I told a person that

I want to die...

She say that

Don't say nonsense

You always smile and make people happy

Especially when everyone bad mood

...

When I heard this sentence

I thought

I'm too good at faking

Maybe should loosen up a bit

And try to be happy

I guess you just notice right??

It's true

I try hard to make people happy

But,

I'm not happy myself

So,

I should try to be happy for once

At band yesterday...

A lot people try to make me laughed

But,

Nothing I did felt happy

I fake laugh,smile

But,

What they saw was 

smiles and laughter from me

But,

What they didn't see was

My heart suffer from pain

I couldn't hold it in anymore

Because

It's just too painful

More and more pain adding

In my heart...

So,

I'll try hard to be happy

If not,

I'll just stay as I am

And suffer...

Alone