It's Time

Maybe it's time

That...

I leave this world

I thought hard

These few days

Of,

What I have to make me continue to live

But,

After I lost her...

There's nothing else

Just her

No one else

I was thinking of every detail

Slowly

But,

Nothing could make me continue living

Nothing

But her

Only her.

She's gone

She hates me

She's hurt

She won't come back

As I hurt her deep

But,

It's because I have to

If not,

I will hurt her more deep

And

I don't have the right to be with her

Yes,

I love her

But,

I love her until I have to let her go

I hope she understand

That's why I say

It's Time

I had the chance to go

But,

Didn't take it

I slowly think

Why??

Why couldn't I just end my life??

So,

As I think

I start to have very pain headache

And

tears start to come out

Cannot stop crying

I don't know when

But 

I really really hope soon

I want to become a dark angel

In hell

Or

An angel

In the heavens

When I reach there,

I sure whisper to God

To bless you

Like a mother would do 

to her daughter...

I do this,

To my beloved

Friend

Brother

BF...

So,

If I have my last moments...

I want to spent it with you

My one and only

Jun