Smile??

Smile

I call people to smile

But,

Why aren't I smiling myself??

People don't have to pretend to be happy

When they are with me

I'm ok

It's fine

I can handle this kind of thing

But,

Did anyone notice that

I call people to smile

But I don't smile??

What?!

It's funny

If you want people to smile,

Shouldn't you smile yourself

I tried to smile

But...

All I can in the mirror is a fake smile

That I always use

And a big crack at my heart

What's the use??

Out side I'm fake smiling

And inside,

I'm crying...

With painful tears...

Hey,

Look!

I can smile without you,

right??

Am I right??

Hope not

Because everytime I smile

There's a big crack at my heart

And my heart won't hold on any longer

It's going to break some day

I can't do anything

So,

I can only wait...

Wait for it break...

I smile in front of you right??

But,

Did you notice that

All this time...

I was only fake smiling so I can make

You...

Happy??

You never noticed that

But,

At least you noticing is better

I don't want to force a smile

Just to make me smile

yeah,

Life's difficult

But,

For a person like me,

I can handle this life

I don't think that

I can hold on anymore

I'm letting go

And when that one day comes,

I'll be ready

I want to let go

I've been holding on a string

And

I wont let go

I keep on holding it tightly

Because the wind is blowing

Last time the wind,

wasn't so strong

But now,

it felt like a tornado just hit me

So,

It's time to let go

Let go the string

And wait

Which world am I going to??

I hope heaven

Because heaven

is my dream place to go

So,

I hope

My funeral

Is a happy funeral

Not sad

But happy smiles