Worst Day

Today was the worst day

I go to training...

And,

I failed running...

I couldn't get marks and I was slow

And then,

I support my team by shouting loudly

But,

Everyone scold me

Say I loud

As usual,

I pretend happy

And say sorry

With a fake smile

Then I go school

I take a book from headmistress's room

And I fell down

Teacher laugh at me

What the...

Then

I call my two friends follow me to canteen

They know I sad

I tell them my problem

I said my dream,

My dream is that...

Die

And everyone smile after I die

I told them that

But,

One understands

But one

Didn't agree much

So,

Every word I said to them

They listen

For once,

I felt

wanted

But,

Not long during I was telling my dream,

I started to cry

And I didn't know why

I cried at the canteen

In front of my friends

And,

the tears

just won't stop rolling down my cheek

They just

Won't stop

No matter what I did

But

I didn't want it to stop

But I must stop

because then

People will worry and ask why

I don't people to worry

Still

I cried and cried and cried

Non-stop

My friend cried with me

I asked why

She said

''Your life must be difficult.''

I kept on crying

Because,

 I couldn't think of doing anything else

Than crying...

Oh,

How I wish to leave this place

Not to another country

Not to another state

But,

To another dimension

Meaning,

I want to live in heaven

And when I look down,

I want to see smiles

Just around me

Because that is what I want

And what I always want

Leave this world

And no one sad

This day isn't all bad

At least I get to cry

If I ever had the chance to die

Without pain,

I would really take that chance

Because

If you have a chance,

Take it

Instead of regretting not...

So,

I hope that,

I can go early

Because what am I living for??

Family hates me

Friends and teachers hate me

Everyone hates me

Who will I rely on??

The seniors I like,

Didn't like me also

And I know that they never will